Heads up everybody I’m a sad bunny today.
The more I put myself out there for career opportunities and for dating it seems the more I’m let down by humans. Less so in the career portion I suppose…but on both ends people seems to want something that is much higher rated than they are willing to give themselves. Almost everyone I try to have a conversation with these days doesn’t seem to be able to even get through that part and if i’m honest with them about not feeling a connection they flip out like we’re in middle school. For my entire life I’ve dreamt of my own family in a cute little house; me and my husband and 3 or 4 little munchkins running around with the dog in the backyard in the summer. I want to be someone’s mom so badly, and it’s devastating to me that I can’t seem to get myself into a position where that’s possible. I want someone to come home to that isn’t of the animal family, as much as I love them. I want to make dinner and pack little snacks with hidden notes for people- to be able to look forward to holidays because I have someone to spend them with, to be able to say “we” can do something.
All of these things seem so simple yet I have no idea how to make them come true.