cue violins

Heads up everybody I’m a sad bunny today.

The more I put myself out there for career opportunities and for dating it seems the more I’m let down by humans. Less so in the career portion I suppose…but on both ends people seems to want something that is much higher rated than they are willing to give themselves. Almost everyone I try to have a conversation with these days doesn’t seem to be able to even get through that part and if i’m honest with them about not feeling a connection they flip out like we’re in middle school. For my entire life I’ve dreamt of my own family in a cute little house; me and my husband and 3 or 4 little munchkins running around with the dog in the backyard in the summer. I want to be someone’s mom so badly, and it’s devastating to me that I can’t seem to get myself into a position where that’s possible. I want someone to come home to that isn’t of the animal family, as much as I love them. I want to make dinner and pack little snacks with hidden notes for people- to be able to look forward to holidays because I have someone to spend them with, to be able to say “we” can do something.

All of these things seem so simple yet I have no idea how to make them come true.

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About Erin Goes Blah- I rant forever

Ever heard of Erin Go Brah? The horse obviously, not the saying! I'm him, in human form but slightly less successful and well known. Perhaps you've also heard of a man named William Shakespeare? In "A mid-summer nights dream" he says, "though she be but little, she is fierce" in reference to Hermia...I have a little bit of that in my mix too. I'm a 26-year-old big kid with occasional adult tendencies just trying to figure out my place in life. Chronically single and exhausted I am the keeper of two jobs and three pets. With approximately 2 hours of free time per day, ​I tend to use it relaxing- leading to much musings and wonderment. I plan on using this blog to reach out to others, and to my inner conscience to better understand my odd habits and talk myself out of them. I hope to bring attention to those in eating disorder recovery, by being open about my hardships and hurdles. I'm weird, silly and looking for someone to share the love with :)
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