I don’t write on here much anymore..maybe I have less to say or maybe I have more people to say it to in person. I’m not sure. Today, however, is a day that calls for writing. A day that I need to put into words, on record…one for the books. I sure as hell can’t say it aloud because it comes out in blubberish.
This morning was one of the worst. I had to (temporarily!) say goodbye to one of the best people I have ever been in contact with in my life. I’m not sure why she allowed herself to be associated with me for this long, but I’m glad to have been able to have her in my life for the past few years. Meeting at Wellington was at least something spectacular to take away from working there. Convincing you to move in with me was possibly the best decision I’ve ever made and has morphed me into an almost human. You’ve helped me through so many things, spent many late nights sitting in the living room in the dark talking, gave me someone to watch tv with( I don’t know if I’ll be able to watch The Walking Dead alone…), made candles during ice storms, helped me eaves drop on the neighbors’ phone calls…I could go on for days.
I’m going to miss you entirely too much for one person to contain, which is possibly why it’s exploding out of me in tears. Nobody will ever be as good of a roommate/therapist to me. I’m 50% hoping you thrive in L.A. but 50% crossing my fingers you decide to come back in January. That’s a lie though, I’m only 5% hoping you thrive. Every time I come home and your car is gone, it’s going to remind me again and I’ll be sad. I can’t quite put my head around the reality of it, even after my excellent display of professional behavior at work this morning saying goodbye. In the meantime I will be planning Disneyland trips, getting some fish, sitting in your room and crying. Please don’t replace me. I hope you don’t block my number after I text you 30,000 times…